Jesus is worthy. How many of you know that Jesus came as the lamb of God, but He's coming again in power as the King? The Second Coming is to take the earth, purge the earth of all iniquity and sin. I personally, I can't wait. Come quickly, come soon, Lord Jesus. Let's praise the Lord in the spirit. I want all you people who are in the spirit to just praise the Lord. Holy is my Lord. Holy is my Lord. You are my Jesus, my Lord, my Savior, Lord God Almighty. Holy is my Lord. Holy is my Lord. He is my Jesus, my Lord, my Savior, Lord God Almighty. Lord God Almighty. Yeah. Worthy. There's only one who is worthy. That's Jesus. Worthy. Worthy. Worthy is the lamb, the lamb of God. Worthy. Worthy, my Lord. Worthy, worthy is the lamb, the lamb of God. Praise my Lord, my Savior. I'm gonna praise His name forever. He is my Jesus, my Lord, my Savior, Lord God Almighty. Yeah. Praise God, Sister. Praise you, Jesus. Praise the Lord and Savior. Praise His name forever. He is my Jesus, my true Savior and Deliverer, Lord God Almighty. Yeah. Worthy. God bless you, brother. Worthy, worthy is the lamb. Worthy. Worthy. Praise God. Worthy. Worthy. Worthy is the lamb, the lamb of God. Worthy. Worthy, my Lord. Worthy. Worthy is the lamb, the lamb of God. Worthy. To be Worthy, worthy is the lamb, the lamb of God. Worthy. To be Jesus is worthy. Worthy, worthy is the lamb, the lamb of God. Worthy. Worthy. Worthy. Worthy is the lamb. Worthy. Worthy. Worthy. Worthy is the lamb. Worthy. Praise you, Jesus. Praise you, Jesus. You know, when I was out shaking hands with everybody, there was one particular person, when I touched that person, I felt the Holy Spirit move. You know, Jesus loves everybody. He loves each and every one of us, but there was somebody that I believe that I shook hands with, where the Holy Spirit really showed that person that He loves them. Jesus loves every one of us. I was in the prison over in Auckland, in New Zealand, and I walked in there and it was a miracle of God that I got in there. It was on the Queen's birthday, and they said it was closed, but the Holy Spirit told me that I was to go into the prison. I picked up a booklet. I went into a restaurant and I picked up a booklet that said, Convicts for Christ, and when I picked up that booklet, the Holy Spirit said to me, you're to go and speak to the prisoners in the prison. Just like that, I felt it. So I asked some men, I was over there with the full gospel businessmen, and of course I thought these men will have connections. See, sometimes we lean on our own understanding, and so I went for the people that I thought would have the contacts, and they got back to me and they said, No, Jeff, I'm sorry, you can't go into the prisons. It's a closed issue. They said there's no way you're going to get in there. They have to check everybody out for at least two weeks, and you being a Yankee, they're going to check you out for at least a year. And so, that's a little joke, you know. But anyway, they said it's impossible. You're not going to get in. The next night was Sunday night, and I was in front of a crowd like this and praising the Lord, and after it was over, a woman came up to me, and she looked like just a normal woman, middle-aged woman, just somebody who was very quiet and sweet. She came up and she said, Jeff, I needed to speak to you backstage because while you were singing tonight, the Lord, the Holy Spirit, moved on me and said, You're to come into the prisons, and you're to speak to the prisoners. And she said, I'm a nurse in the prison, and she said, I really feel that I have never asked the warden a favor, but she said, the Holy Spirit moved on me and I'm going to ask him tomorrow if you can come into prison. Next day, I was in the prison at 10 a.m. Praise God. And they said it was medium security, so I thought, Oh, this will be good. This will be the guys that have just, you know, gotten busted for drunk driving or this or that. And I thought, I've been in death row in the United States and different things, and I thought I'd seen it all. But when I walked into medium security, I like the dyed right there. I said, This is medium security? Guys looked like gorillas in there. Praise God. I mean, rough. My Lord God. And of course, right away, they started out on me. I mean, I went in and they had only announced for 10 minutes before I got there that I was coming. When I walked in, all the guys went, Hey, cutie, hey, honey. So I just walked right over to the biggest, ugliest one and shook his hand and said, Praise God, brother. Jesus loved you. What's your name? And he said, Richard. And then I shook hands with all of them and the Holy Spirit moved in there. And they were not allowed to come forward to accept Jesus. They had to sit. Well, they were allowed to actually stand up and pray, but they weren't allowed to come forward. But these guys sat there and they were rough. And the Holy Spirit really moved on me to talk to them where they live. I served time as a kid, and I'll go into that a little bit as the night progresses. I served time as a youth and also as an adult. And it's it's rough. But these guys were sitting there all trying to look tough, be cool. But as the Holy Spirit started moving, I noticed they were still sitting, looking the same way, except there were tears coming down their cheeks. Jesus loves everybody and he died for everybody one at a time, one at a time. When I was in a prison in the States, ministering, not one that I was actually. When I was there ministering a month or two ago, a guy came forward at one of the prisons and he was rough. This was in a federal prison, not state, but federal. And the warden came over to me afterwards over and he said, you know who that guy is? I said no. And he said his name. And I said, I still don't know. And he said he murdered 12 people. And yet that guy came forward crying and got on his knees and accepted Jesus. Also, I don't know if you people have heard of Hell's Angels, the motorcycle gang, one of the leaders for the entire southern California, the entire state of California. I won't mention his name, but he was in the federal prison. He came forward and accepted Jesus. Praise God. So Jesus is no respecter of persons. I've seen people that have come from ivory towers and I've seen people that have come from the gutters. And in my case, I was living in an ivory tower and I was living in a gutter all at the same time when I came to the Lord. Living in a mansion, but inside my soul was a was a was a slum. Praise God. I'm going to share with you a little bit of how I got to where I am right now, which is standing up. Let's let me explain it to you from my perspective. I'm standing here with the lights up. Where we can all see each other. I'm completely straight. I'm not drunk and I'm not stoned. And the amazing thing is too that the audience is not drunk or stoned. And I'm talking about Jesus. And what an amazing thing that is. It's an amazing thing. A lot of the reason I'm here is because of my wife Maureen who prayed for me. You women out there that are praying for your loved ones, don't give up. And to be honest with you, it was darkest before dawn. It got rough and it got rough for her. As a matter of fact, I almost killed her physically right before I came to the Lord. But just keep praying for God says His word will not return void. You stand on the word of God for your loved ones and you'll see results. I'm telling you. But what happened in my life to put me from the darkness and the heavy metal rock scene up here? With three things. Jesus, Jesus, and Jesus. I could end right there and say, okay, everybody wants to accept Jesus, come forward. And that would be enough said as far as I'm concerned. But I'll tell you anything that I say tonight about my background is not to puff me up. Believe me, it's the opposite of that. It's only to show as a testimony what the power of God has been in my life. To raise me out of the pits of hell and out of the death that I was in. It's a glory to His name. I praise Him. I've had people say to me, how can you give up rock? I haven't given up anything. I've received from the Lord. I've received sanity. I've received a clear mind. I've received a good family. My wife and I had one child the whole time I was in the world. I've been saved now since August of 1979. And my wife is expecting a baby August 18th. In two months she's expecting another baby. Number six. Now I know I don't look like everybody's idea of a father. But the Lord has blessed me with kids. And I love my babies. My whole life has changed, man. It has changed since I met Him and it's all changed for the good. Praise you, Jesus. I grew up in a home that was filled with child abuse and trouble. Beatings and fighting, backstabbing inside the family itself, cheating, divorce, alcoholism. It was a mess. My earliest imagination or earliest thoughts were of being beaten and being hurt as a kid, being knocked out. By the time I was 12 years old, I didn't want to be at home anymore. I wanted to be out on the streets and that's where I was, was in the streets. And I'll tell you something, I've been meeting people all over the world. There have been young people coming forward. I talked to a young 16-year-old girl. About five days ago I talked to a 16-year-old girl who was a prostitute. And she was working the streets. And when I started asking her about her problems because she would not accept Jesus at first, there have been several prostitutes that I've talked to that have been young women while I've been in this neck of the woods. Young women. And I'll tell you, too many times when you talk to young people that are in trouble, they come from abuse, child abuse, their fathers molested them. They've been raped. The children are paying for the sins of the adults and the parents. When one child dies on a drug overdose or from being murdered in the streets, they're dying by default because we didn't go out and share with them the love of Jesus Christ. In Los Angeles there are something like 300 John and Mary Doe teenagers every weekend that are put into the morgue. Every weekend. Well, I grew up in that same type situation of abuse. And I was running the streets. By the time I was 12 years old, my mother called the police and she said, I don't want this kid anymore. Get rid of him. And the police came and arrested me at my house and took me to Boys Industrial School, which was a youth correctional facility. And it was like a prison. And I went in there and I thought, I can't believe I'm in this place. 12 years old and I'm inside a prison with guys that are 18 years old that have committed murders and things. And there was nobody on the outside trying to get me out. Nobody. And it was amazing what was going on there. See, the only person that I could have called would have been my mother. But she put me there. And I had a psychiatrist go before the judge and talk to the judge and he said, the judge said, what have you found in speaking to this young man? Why is this young man so violent? Why is he always hitting people? Why is he always stealing things? Why is he running the streets and disappears from home for the entire weekends? What's wrong with him? And the psychiatrist was so profound with his statement. He said, there's no love in this kid anywhere. Now, I can't imagine why. So I was in this Boys Industrial School and I said, man, I'm going to get out of here. And when I do, I'm never looking back. Fortunately, I got out, went and lived with a minister for a while, then went back to my mother's house and was back in and out of Boys Industrial School. And then I put together a rock group. And I thought, man, this group deserves the best. So I went out and I stole a PA system from a church. This is my first group. Started through the church. Funded by the church. Praise God. I've repented of that, by the way. I haven't sent him a check yet, but I've repented of it. So in any event, I was out rocking and rolling. If I wasn't in jail, I was doing rock. And it fit like a hand in glove. See, rock and roll was very violent. All these young kids were out there singing songs like, together forever and never to part, together forever we two. You know? And all of a sudden, I'd come out with my group and go, There ain't no love in the heart of the city. And people said, whoa, where does this kid get that? This little skinny white kid. Where does he sing like that? I was singing from my guts. And I was singing because I was hurting. I was dying as a kid. 15 years old, I got my first hit record. And I was singing songs about death at 15 years old. I was singing lyrics like, I'm tired of living, but I'm afraid to die. Because I don't know what's up there beyond the sky. Been a long time coming, but I know there's a change going on. A change gonna come, yeah it will. I didn't know the change that was coming was gonna be Jesus. By the time I was 19 years old, I was out on the road, signed to CBS Records to do a solo album. And I'm out hanging out on the street, and I was wearing my leathers and my boots, and I had really long hair. I mean, come on guys, I know you might think I look a little rugged. There might even be people saying, is he a Christian or what? But this is cute. You should have seen me before I got saved. Now that would have emptied the hall here. This is the new me. Praise God. So I was out on the road and I was traveling around. I had one night off, just one night off on this tour. And I thought, I don't want to be around a group, and I don't want to be around the guys I'm sick of seeing their faces and everything. I'm gonna go out and party. I'm gonna go to the X-rated clubs, and I'm gonna hang out in the drug section, and I'll find a young lady or some girl that's running the streets. And I'm gonna party heavy tonight, you know. So I'm out there in my leathers and I'm walking around and milling around in this heavy section. All of a sudden I heard, for God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son that whosoever believeth in him should not perish but have eternal life. Now where's this coming from? So I walked over by the park and I walked up to look at this guy that was saying this thing about God that I'd never heard. And I saw him and I thought, ah man, come on, look at this guy. This is an L-7 here. This guy's a nerd. I mean, he looked like New Wave and it hadn't been invented yet, you know. I mean, his hair was a butcher had done his hair. So I'm looking at him and I think, what are you doing down here, mister? What are you doing here? And he's saying, Jesus loves you. I'm down here because this is where Jesus would be. Jesus said, I come for the sick. I said, what's this Jesus? Who's Jesus? I mean, I heard that he's the son of God and he showed everybody how to live, but I don't know how to live that way so I'm not gonna make it anyway, man. He said, no, he died for your sins. That's why he came and I said, that's deep. That's heavy. Can I hear more? And he said, yeah. He said, we're having a revival tonight. And I came down here on a bus and we're gonna take all these people down here, as many as will come, out to a revival. So I got on a bus and went to a revival on my night off. And I'm out there with all these drunks, people from the street, and they're all pointing at me saying, look at that weirdo over there. I was the weird one on the bus. I'm in there with all these things dangling all over me and gold and patches and leathers and boots and long hair with the streaks and everything all over the place. I'm sitting in there, I'm thinking, I can't believe I'm on a bus going to a revival. I walked into this church and the people were all mumbling in a strange language and I said, man, let me see your passports. Where are you people from? I never heard a church talking like this. Then I went down and I sat near the front and the preacher started preaching and he preached his message. And then when his message was over, I was thinking, man, I want to get out of here, you know? Then he goes, you're a sinner. You need to come to Jesus. And I thought, this guy's looking at me and I started looking around. And every time I look back at him, he was looking at me. He said, you need to come and confess your sins and receive the forgiveness and redemption and salvation through the Lord Jesus Christ who died for your sins. And he went on and on and on. And finally, I thought, you know, I'm going to have to go up and accept Jesus because this guy's not going to shut up until I do. And the only way out of here is on the bus. So I got up and I went forward. I thought, OK, here I am. But as I was standing up there, I said, Jesus, if you're real, show me. OK, I just want to know what's going on here. And I felt the power of the Holy Spirit go down my back like, and I said, my God, there's something. You're real. And I got on my knees and the Holy Spirit started moving on me and I saw this hardened kid who was making it in a rock scene. The Holy Spirit started moving on me. And I said, oh, my God, I didn't know. My God. I said, I want to receive you, Jesus. And just as I said, Jesus, you're real, the pastor said, get up. I got up and he said, you're not ready to accept Jesus. Look at you. He said, you want to cut your hair. You want to put on some decent clothes and stop walking around like some street urchin. And then you come back to my church. And if you look good and you're acting good, then we'll let you receive Jesus. That's true. And I looked at him and that hardness started coming back. And I was used to being in front of audiences, so I wasn't intimidated by a crowd. And I looked at him and I said, me? I look stupid? You look like a jack in the box, man. Who made you king? And he said, get out of my church. So I walked out of the church like the rock star, the rock person. I just walked out like, goodbye. See you. Not one person stopped me. Now, there were a lot of things that happened that night in my heart. And I don't have time to go into it all, but I can tell you there was a war going on that night. Because I had experienced that Jesus was real. But I was an outcast in society. I'd always been on the dark side of life, if you will. And then the one time I tried to reach out, I got thrown out. That reminds me of a story of a man who was dirty. He didn't have a shirt on his back and he didn't have any shoes on. And he went into a church and he sat in the back of the church. And the ushers came back to him and they said, sir, I'm sorry. You smell. You're dirty. You don't have a shirt on or shoes on. I'm afraid you're going to have to leave. And they took him by the arms and they escorted him out the door. And they said, you're going to have to leave this church. You're too dirty. The man sat out on the step and he started crying. And Jesus appeared to him and said, why are you crying? And the man said, I'm dirty and I smell. And they won't let me in their church. And Jesus said, don't cry. And he was trying to get in there for 25 years. Praise God. But I hardened my heart against Christians from that day forward. A short time after that, I was in Jesus Christ Superstar. And I signed management to Robert Stigwood from Sydney, Australia here. And I approached the Beatles, the Bee Gees, Eric Clapton, all these heavy rock groups. And they asked me to go out and do a tour, a heavy metal tour. And I thought, it's not going to be any big deal. Just a heavy metal tour. So I went out and I started singing this part and I thought, I'm just going to make some money. And then when it's over, I'll just go back to the group. No big deal. And I'll do this for them and then they're going to help me with my career. And during that time, I had a young lady, Maureen McFadden, that I had met fly out to meet me on the road. And I was really into her. I liked her a lot. I'm not sure that I loved her or was in love with her because I really am not sure that I was capable of it at that point. But if I was capable of love, she was it. OK? She came out on the road and I met her at the airplane and I'm looking at her and I'm thinking, she's a beautiful young lady. She's a good Catholic, Irish Catholic girl. Sweet, pretty thing. You know, she's so nice and we're going to party. She comes off the plane and she goes, praise the Lord, Jeff, I've been born again. And I went, oh, God Almighty. And she said, and I didn't come out here to be with you on the road. If you want me to be on the road, you have to marry me. I was going through some changes. So I married her. Rene had only been saved. Maureen, I call her Rene. She'd only been saved a short time and she wasn't aware of the scripture that says you're not to be unequally yoked. But of course, she'd already fallen in love with me, you know, before she met the Lord. And you can't blame her. I'm so cute. I mean, let's face it. I was out on the road rocking and rolling and singing about Jesus. And all of a sudden, this thing starts selling. The album starts going crazy. We were doing stadiums of 100,000, 130,000 people a day coming into these things. And the media was getting insane. I couldn't go out on my hotel rooms. I couldn't even get out of the limousines anywhere. Everybody was either trying to save me or kill me, one of the two. And all I'm doing is just trying to do a rock concert. But because it's called Jesus Christ Superstar, it was freaking everybody out. See, when you say the name Jesus, things start happening. You can talk about Buddha. You can talk about Mohammed. But when you talk about Jesus, things start happening. I went to Broadway and I opened on Broadway and they put my picture on the cover of Time magazine. I was in Life magazine and Newsweek and all the big world magazines, the rock magazines. I started hanging out with the Rolling Stones and the Deep Purple and the Pink Floyd and all the big rock groups. Jackie Onassis was coming backstage, all the big society people inviting my wife and I out to parties. And I got to the point of where I didn't want to hear about Jesus anymore. I was so sick of it. I had Oral Roberts come backstage one night. How many of you people know who Oral Roberts is? He came backstage. He said, son, I want to talk to you about Jesus. And I was thinking the Christians that threw me out of the church. I said, get out of here. I don't want to talk to you, man. I had the head of the Satanic Church come back. He said, I want to talk to you about Satan, man. You can have an impact. And you need to sell yourself and you'll really see success in your life. This guy had his head shaved and he's wearing a big black cape or some goofy thing. I told him, I said, man, you look like a nuclear missile. Get out of here. Then I had the Beatles guru come backstage. He came back with he was wearing all orange and he had all these flowers and everything. And he was throwing they were throwing flowers around. All these people were praying to him. And there were people following him, praying to him. And he told me he all the people in the cast, they were all there were a lot of people into Voodoo and Satanism and the big heavy rockers. A lot of them were into Satan worship. And these people come back going, you've got to meet the guru. This guy, his aura is incredible. This guy comes back and he says, if you will pray to me, I will show you a state of nothingness. Peace. And I looked at him. I said, man, I would rather pray to a pizza than pray to you. I didn't even want to I didn't want to know about anything. I didn't want to know about God or anything. By the time I left the show Superstar, I had been working every night, every night. But I've been repeating the word of God. And like I alluded to earlier, God's word does not return void. I would hang on the cross every night. And I'd be up there and I'd be saying, Father, forgive them for they know not what they're doing. My God, why has thou forsaken me? And then it came down to this heavy part every night, year after year, several years of this night after night, hanging on a cross. And I'd be drunk or I'd have taken pills, playing the part of Jesus, drunk. And I'd be up there and I'd say, Father, it is finished. Father, into your hands I commend my spirit. And then I would hang my head and play dead for 10 minutes while they had the cross come out 35 feet over the audience with all the lights out in the hall. This place held about four thousand people. It was a relatively small crowd. It wasn't like the big ones on the, when you're out touring. So I could really sense the audience. And here I am hanging in the dark with lights on me on the cross, going out over the audience. And every night I would hear people crying out there. It was mostly women saying, Oh Jesus, praise you Jesus, my Savior Jesus. Every once in a while you'd hear a man say, glory to God or something, but there were fewer of those. But I thought, man, if they're not locked up, I find them. They're all out there. And I'm hanging there with my eyes closed, listening to people praising Jesus every night. I'm thinking, I can't take another minute of this. This is freaking me out. But I couldn't just raise my head and go, just kidding guys, you know what I mean? Just a play, just a production. I'm not him. So I'm hanging out there and every night this was going through my head. I was thinking, Jesus, who are you? Jesus, who are you? I came out of the show and I bought a big house, big mansion out in Long Island. I had an apartment in New York City, cost $9,000 a month. This home in Long Island was so big and the gardens were so lush that I had to pay gardeners $300 a day to keep the garden. I bought Mercedes limousines, Cadillac limousines, Mercedes two-seater convertibles. I had chefs, maids, people who do everything I wanted. I had bouncers, rough guys with big arms and muscles hanging out all over the place just to make people nervous when I go places. And my wife, Rene, would pray for me and she'd say, Jeff, you need Jesus. And I'd say, shut up! I don't need nothing. I'd say, you like your Gucci coats and you like your lifestyle, you just keep your mouth shut. And I start getting into the occult. I start getting far away from the Lord Jesus Christ. I was hanging out with drug addicts and rock musicians that were wasted. If you people only knew, those of you that admire rock and rollers, if you only knew what was going on in their minds and what was going on backstage, you wouldn't admire it. You'd pity it. I wouldn't wish that paranoia on a dog. I've seen guys backstage, big guys from big rock groups backstage going, I'm freaking, man, I'm freaking, I can't make it, I can't make it. Freaking out there and people going, take this. And they take it and they say, come on, I can't, I can't, I can't. And they say, get out there. The stage is the best hiding place in the world. Then they shove them out there with a guitar and just because they walk out and go, wah, nobody, nobody. Everybody thinks they got it so together. Meanwhile, they're up there going, I'm freaking, I'm freaking out. You don't know. The debauchery. So I was having a rough time. But the world thought I had everything. And my wife kept saying, I'm praying for you, I'm praying for you. And I'd say, if you pray for me again, I'm going to kill you. And her girlfriends had come over and they'd do spiritual cleanings in the house. I said, I don't want your girlfriends in my house anymore. They make me nervous and they're making my friends paranoid. And you're always rebuking everybody for throwing up on the rugs and everything. And I was saying, you know, you don't go to the parties anymore. You don't drink anymore. You don't do anything anymore. You don't wear rude outfits. You're no fun. Me, I got it fun. I weighed 128 pounds. I was paranoid. I couldn't go shopping in a grocery store because to get through the aisles from aisle A all the way to aisle Z was more than I could handle, man. Picking stuff off the thing, I would freak by the time I got down the second or third aisle. I'd say, it's too heavy, man. I can't handle this. I'd leave the I left the store several times with carts with stuff because I couldn't handle getting through the aisles. I couldn't do anything for myself except hang out in the dark places with drug addicts and rock and rollers and make music. What a life. Wake up in the morning with girls whose names I didn't know and they didn't care whether I lived or died. Now there's a thing out there called AIDS. I think that's clipped few people's wings. God in his mercy has given us a way out. Jesus Christ. Jesus says in the world, there'll be trouble. But fear not, for I have overcome the world. But I didn't know that and I wouldn't hear it. One night I beat Rene up so bad I went after her one night when I was stoned. And I said, oh, you want to talk about Jesus? Talk about this. Bam. And I hit her. My wife's 110 pounds, soaking wet. She's little. She's thin. She's delicate. She's a lady. She's a woman of God. She's never hit me. She's never hit anybody in her whole life. But I went after her to kill her the way I would go after a man. And I used to go after men back then, too. And it used to astound people what happened when I went after men. But I had a spirit of murder on me. Now I couldn't do anything. But it was different then. And every time I remember her on the floor trying to cover up, but she didn't have enough arms and there was no way to cover her entire body up while I was beating her up. And I just decided I'm going to kill this woman. I was insane under the power of Satan and darkness. And I beat her. And every time she put her hand over her this way and her ear would show, I'd see her ear and I'd go bam and I'd hit her in the ear. Then she'd fall over sideways and curl up in a ball. And then her side would be exposed. So then I'd kick her in the side. This went on until she was completely unconscious. Then I got down and I slapped her a few times. I said, get up. She didn't get up. It's all rather a blur to me, but I remember certain things. I remember beating her. And I remember she was out and I couldn't get her to come, too. So I took all the flowers out of the vase and entrance for her. And I dumped all the water on her, splashed it all over the wall and all over the dining room. And she just laid there. And I thought, man, she's really out. You did it. You know what I did? I didn't call an ambulance. I didn't check to see if she was going to live. I didn't see if she was breathing. I didn't do anything. I went upstairs and I went to sleep. That's how much I cared about living and life. I was shot on a one-way ticket to hell. Shot. No emotions, no nothing. This is a woman that had had one of my babies. The only baby I had. She's the only woman that's had my babies. I want to correct that so you don't misinterpret what I said. And I was beating her up and almost killed her. Next morning I got up and she was gone. And I started calling around to her friends. And I said, are you hiding Maureen out? You are. Christian lady, you're going to get it. They said, no, we don't know where she is. And then I called somewhere else. Are you hiding my wife out again? They said, no, you fool. Your wife is in the hospital in intensive care. And they think she might die. I had beaten her and her kidneys failed. Because I hit her so many times and the kidneys, it made her kidneys fail. She came out of the hospital and I was in Europe. I was hiding out. I had my attorneys ready for a lawsuit, ready for charges, whatever would happen. But all that happened was Rene came back to the house. And my attorney said, I can't believe this man. Your wife is crazy. She's got an order of protection that she's going after. To keep you away from her if you're drunk or stoned. But she says, as long as you're not drunk or stoned, you can come back to the house and live with her. And I called her up and Rene said, I'm praying for you, honey. I want you. I love you. I'm not taking that abuse from you, but I love you. And if you'll come home and be straight and sober, you can live in this home. But I will not have drugs in my house. And I went back there. I said, baby, I'll clean up. I'll change all my ways. And that lasted at least two days. The next time I tried to go after her and beat her up, something had changed since she went in the hospital. And I looked at her and I was upstairs. And I still remember this time, too. I went after her and I said, you. Look here. You. And I started going after her and she started cowering. And she got back and she said, I bind you, Satan, in the name of Jesus. And I stopped. And I looked at her and I said, Satan? What? And then I said, this woman's sick. She thinks I'm Satan. But I stopped. And it was the only time I had ever stopped. I went off to Europe and Reani told me, I want to get a wing on the house rebuilt because it's too cold. I said, OK, honey, go ahead. Hire a construction crew. And this is the crew I want you to hire. And I gave her a name of the company. And I said, OK, you go ahead home. You have the construction crew here. And we'll just make sure they do it right. So you go ahead and have that wing on a house rebuilt. Baby, you know, OK, a nice, nice girl. Patronizing way. My worldly way. I thought, well, I got the perfect situation. She's married and I'm not. As long as you keep her happy. A little money and this and that. I had no idea that she was with me because she loved me. So I go off to Europe. And I came home, I'm driving down through the entrance to the house. My limousine driver, the grump, I called him, he started roaring with laughter. And I had never heard him laugh in all the years that he worked for me. I never heard him laugh. That's why I called him a grump. He's going, ah, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha. I said, what in the world? He points at the backers and he said, he's having a revival. He's pointing at me. And I got out of the car. I thought, oh, and there was a panel truck back there with Jesus painted on the side. It said Jesus saves on the side of the panel truck. I mean, these guys were serious. So I went in and I said, Rene, get rid of these Christians. I don't want Christians in my house. I can't stand your girlfriends. And these guys are always weirding out. And they make me and my friends paranoid. My buddies running around in their underwear and everything, and everybody gets crazy. And I said, get rid of them. I said, I don't want Christians in my house. And Rene said, but honey, Jeffrey, here's the estimate from the company that you wanted me to hire for $50,000. She said, and here is the estimate from these guys. You are saving $10,000. Now that spoke to my heart. I said, oh, I'm saving money. She said, yeah. I said, well, I'm not here that much anyway, I guess. So I said, all right, they can stay. But I said, I'm going to go tell those guys. I don't want them playing that ukulele music over there or whatever it is they're doing. And I don't want any hammering done until 12 noon. I need my beauty rest, you know. So I didn't face them that day. But the next day I got up at the crack of noon and I went downstairs to talk to these guys, just like I always did. I had on no shirt, baggy pants, boots. I had my hair all freaked out all over everywhere. And I staggered into the room and I thought, I'm going to go tell these guys, man. These are all going to be a bunch of wimps and I'm going to just shock them. I'm just going to walk in and just get heavy right off the bat so that they know who's boss. Because I don't look like anybody's boss. And I knew I was young and in rock and people were always trying to take advantage of me in the world. Always trying to rip me off for money. So I used to get real heavy with guys. Say, you're working for me, you step out of line, you're history, you're fired, man. I don't care if you don't like my looks, my face, my music, you like the money. So you just shut up and do what I tell you to do. And if you can't handle that, man, get out now. And I used to get real heavy with people because I was paranoid and I was nervous. I didn't want anybody to see how insecure I was. So in the rock and roll scene, there's a saying that when in doubt, turn up. See, must be a lot of people in doubt out there at 140 decibels of sound or whatever. So I walked in and I'm expecting to see a bunch of wimps. But what I didn't know was the chief contractor for the job, Nick DiCipio, was from Italy, spoke a broken English like this, and he'd been saved out of the mafia. And Nick DiCipio had a ministry of deliverance. The church has called him all over Long Island. He lives in Lake Ronconcom, a Long Island, New York. And the church has called Nick when they have somebody really in trouble. Nick comes in and prays. It's the ministry the Lord has given him, his deliverance ministry. And he's the chief contractor on the job. Every carpenter that was in that house had been delivered of alcoholism and drug addiction, and it come from the streets of New York City. Every one of them. And when they got delivered of their drug problem, Nick said, you can live in the home that I've set up. And he took all the money from his construction company and set up a home for alcoholics, ex-alcoholics, ex-drug addicts. I got a brother who's been an alcoholics anonymous for seven years, and he still thinks of himself as an alcoholic. I was with Jesus Christ for seven seconds, and that was already history. Whom the Lord sets free is free indeed. And thank God all these guys were not just walking around the way I pictured Christians, people with the form of godliness but denying the power they're in. These guys were on fire because they had been set free. To whom much is forgiven. He who is forgiven much loves much. Loves much. And all these guys came from rough backgrounds. Man, the Holy Spirit set me up. And I went walking in there and I thought I'm going to see all these guys like tap, tap, tapping with little shiny hammers. They're going to have on little white suits and carnations and all clean and shiny, like Santa's elves, you know, just bat, bat, bat, bat. They're going to walk up and they're all, they're all eyes will sparkle, you know. Hey, how are thou? But instead I pushed open the door and I looked at him and I thought, whoa, come on, Christians, you guys got tattoos, man. He's got the big muscles. I said that one over there, he's got no teeth. This one over here, your nose looks like you got hit by a truck in the face. I'm looking at all these guys. I thought, come on, Christians with cutoff shirts and tattoos, heavy guys. Come on, give me a break. Christians. So these look like my roadies. But I went in and I thought somebody's playing a joke on somebody here, but I still, I'm going to get heavy. So I walked in and I said, where's Nick DiCipio? Who's Nick DiCipio? Now from the back comes this big, short, but big Italian guy. He's walking out and he goes, I'm a Nick DiCipio. And I said, oh. I said, I want to talk to you, man. And he said, no, I want to talk to you, man. You played the part of Jesus Christ. Now are you ready to meet the real Jesus Christ? And I said, no. Now that we got that out of the way, and then they start mumbling. I said, wait a minute, what are you doing? And Nick goes, we're going to pray for you. I said, go pray for your mother. I don't want you praying for me. Then they're praying. I said, no subtitles, guys. What's the language? And I start getting nervous. Nick DiCipio start walking towards me. And I start cussing God. And I backed up through this big room and I just start cussing God. And I'm trying to stay away from him. And I used the most foul language I could use on him. And he got up close to me and I said, phew. And I spit at him and I said, stop. I was paranoid. I was freaking out in paranoia. I felt like I was going to vomit. And I said, I told you to stop. And I spit in his face and Nick DiCipio just kept praying and walking. This guy could have killed me, but he didn't. And I said, I'm telling you, man, I didn't want to run. But I said, I'm telling you, don't get near me. Now that was ridiculous. I weighed 130 pounds telling these carpenters, don't get near me. It's ridiculous. But I was so bound up in fear from what I'd gotten into and to my satanic worship and all the garbage. And Nick DiCipio said, hey, if you can get past the power of Jesus Christ, be my guest. So I'm standing with my fist up. And I got so nervous I ran out of the room. And I went to the far end of my house and I was shaking. And I turned all the lights off and I pulled all the blinds and it was pitch black in the bedroom. And the Holy Spirit started dealing with me and said, you need Jesus. And I said, I need something. I've got everything in the world that I set out to have and I'm dying. I have never prayed in my life except for death that I was aware of. I was actually praying for death to whom it may concern. I want to go. But I don't want to commit suicide because I believe that if you commit suicide, you're going straight to hell or whatever it is. But I thought I got to get out of here. I can't run from my own mind and I'm freaking every day. Everybody out there thinks I've got it made. Platinum albums, rock groups, limousines. You drive down the street and everybody points. You go into the dark clubs, the big rock clubs, all the girls come over and go, hi honey and all this stuff. Oh, he's rich. He's got this and he's, oh, this that guy. And that guy with him is with, you know, Rod Stewart's group or they're this or they're that. Making a show. I couldn't talk to anybody about my problems. I was too sealed off. But I knew that apart from God, I was dying. And I said, I need something. And after two, excuse me, two hours of wrestling with the Holy Spirit, I went down those stairs and I thought I'm going to face these men because you ran away like a little girl, first of all. And you don't want them to be able to tell your wife you ran. So you face them man to man. Secondly, they said they're going to pray for you and you freaked. Why are you freaking out? Why are you so nervous? They said they'll pray. You need something. Give it a shot. So I walked into the room and I pushed open the door and there's a Nick, all these ugly guys. And I said, hey, don't get cute and don't get any big ideas trying to be cool. I didn't know. I was just paranoid, man. I was absolute paranoid standing there. But I tried to put on a show and I said, I don't accept Jesus. So don't get any ideas. I don't join your club. And I'm not a part of your religion, you and my goofy wife and all this other stuff. But I said, you guys said you want to pray for me, man. Is that right? Nick goes, that's all right. I said, take your best shot. Go for it. Pray. Come on, pray. Let's see it. And I thought I got nothing to lose. Either way, I win because nothing will happen. And I can go away from that and I won't have run away. I can tell my wife I stood there and I faced these guys. And if they pray, if anything happens, we'll see. Let's see what their God is like. And I thought they were going to say, dear God, please forgive this dirtball. But instead, they all started running at me at once with their hands out going, I stay cut out of my set up shop. And they laid hands on my head. And when they did, I went down to my knees. And when I stood up, I had been delivered on the spot of drug addiction, of alcoholism, of that paranoia spirit that had been on me for nine years. And I started jumping up and down. And I said, it's gone. And they said, what's gone? And I said, that spirit, the paranoia, I can think. I said, I'm not hooked on drugs. And I started laughing like a schoolgirl. Jumping up and down, I go, man, this is great. And they're all just staring at me like it happens every day. Going, look at the guy jumping up and down in here. Praise God. And I said, what did you do? And this guy said, we prayed for you, man. We prayed in the name of Jesus. And I said, if this is the power of Jesus, then I want to accept him as my Lord and Savior right now. How do I do that? And they said, pray after me. And I started praying. I said, Father, I come before you in Jesus' name. And I said, Jesus, I accept you as my Lord. And I got on my knees in front of those men. And I accepted Jesus. The next day, I went forward at a church and accepted the Lord publicly. Then they said, we're going to baptize you, like what happened here. So I was living on the ocean. I had this big mansion on the ocean. They said, we're going to take you down to the ocean. I went down to the ocean. As I started going down to the ocean, I started thinking, wait a minute. All these big roughnecks, this boy started talking to me, saying, this is what it was all about. They're going to kill you. They're going to drown you. I'm serious. I'm going down to the beach. I said, they're going to what? And I'm thinking, no. I was still getting hassled a little bit. Satan didn't want to let go that fast. So I'm going down to the beach. I start getting paranoid or nervous again. But then I thought, now, wait a minute. You saw what Jesus did for you the other day. You feel tremendous. Trust the Lord. So I went down there, and I started walking into the ocean. So I'm standing in the ocean with all these big ugly guys. They said, OK, I baptize you in the name of the Father. And they started to put their hands on me. I said, no, wait a minute. Wait a minute, guys. I started thinking about it. I thought, now, if they put me under the water backwards, I don't have any feet under me or anything. And I can't fight back if they start drowning me. And I really felt these guys, this was all a thing to drown me. If you can imagine the mentality of that, I'm probably the only guy in the history of the world that was baptized like this. I thought, I'm going to keep my legs under me. But you know, that voice was right. Something did die. Satan died in me, and I came out washed under the blood of Jesus, just like all these people washed under the blood of Jesus. Praise the Lord. Praise you, Jesus. Can we all stand up? I know that there are a lot of people that are born again here tonight, but I believe there are some people that have never accepted Jesus as your Lord and Savior. Those of you that want to accept Jesus, don't put it off. Don't put it off. Come to Him now. He says, if you'll confess me before men, I'll confess you before the Father. It's with your heart you believe that Jesus is your Savior. It's with your mouth that you confess Him unto salvation. Jesus doesn't say, come unto Jeff, all of you. He says, come unto me, He says. I didn't have to go through a pastor in a church. I had to go directly to Jesus. But we're going to give you the chance to do that tonight. You're not going to pray to us. You're not giving up anything. I had a prostitute the other day say, I can't accept Jesus. She said, I know, I make too much money, and I'm going to be in the massage parlor again tomorrow night. And she was crying. She said, I can't accept Jesus. Well, I'll tell you, she did accept Jesus, and she was not in the massage parlor the next night. Because Jesus changed her heart. People say to me, I've had people, I had a rock and roll group call me, a group called Fallen Angel, called me a few months back, and they wanted me to sing for their group on Epic Records. And I knew these guys. They used to work on Swan Song and Led Zeppelin's label, and I've known these guys for years. And they called me and they said, we played a tape that you sang on a while back, and Epic Records said, if we could get you to sing, this thing's going to happen. We're going to be able to have our group. And I said, guys, I don't do that anymore. I don't do that anymore. I'm not singing that. I'm into Jesus, and I'm out witnessing. And they said, oh, you're brainwashed. And I said, I haven't been brainwashed. I've been heartwashed, guys. And you know, Jesus hasn't taken anything away from me. People talk about my rock background. If I wanted to rock, I could still rock. I just got to put on different clothes. You got to look like a circus blew up on you or something, and walk out. And instead of singing, oh, happy days, you're singing, going to rock the world. But see, I don't want to do that anymore, because it's more important for me to see people come to Jesus and to see people getting drunk and stoned and going out. And the other night in Wellington, New Zealand, I stood up and I said, I believe in the power of the Holy Spirit somebody here is hearing for the last time to come to the Lord. And I've never said that in the whole past year that I've been witnessing for the Lord. But the Holy Spirit moved on me, and I knew that it was somebody's last shot. And I even told him. I said, I don't know if you're going to harden your heart or if you're going to die. But somehow or other, there's somebody here that's hearing about Jesus for the last time. Next night, I was somewhere else in New Zealand. I don't know if it was Napier or Christ Church or wherever. And a guy called me that had been at the meeting, one of the pastors or full gospel businessman, I'm trying to remember. They called and they said, Jeff, last night you said that somebody, it was their last shot. And he said, as we were finished with the concert, a crowd about like this, he said a young man on the way home from your concert was riding a motorcycle, got hit by a truck, and was instantly killed. I said, was he born again? He said, I don't know. I said, what do you mean you don't know? Find out. That's what it's all about. I want to know, brother. Find out. He said, well, I'm going to have to find out. I heard it through somebody, through somebody. I said, call me tomorrow. Call me. So he called me the next day. And I didn't know whether I was going to have a praise report or be talking about some pretty rugged stuff. But I'm here to tell you it's a praise report. That guy accepted Jesus. Now, I will tell you that was cutting it close. And I'm not making jokes, but I can have joy in my heart that that guy is with the Lord Jesus Christ. In some ways, I envy him right now. But he cut it close. I had another friend who told me I don't want to know about God. Two days later, I witnessed to him when I was in a recording studio working on an album. This guy's a rock star. Two days later, he was shot to death. His name's Felix Papalardi. He was my best friend. And I watched him on the news, on television, come out in a plastic bag while this press was saying, Rock star Felix Papalardi murdered last night in New York. And then they got into all the kinky stuff in a love triangle with his girlfriend and another girl. And this and that. And he was said to be worth $18 million. And he's produced all these groups. And he's done this. And he's written those songs. And they start showing his picture all over everything. And all I was thinking in my mind was Felix telling me in the studio on Thursday night, Hey, man, if there's a God in heaven, that's cool. Get out of my face. And I said, Felix, you need Jesus. He said, you're a good singer, man. You can sing in this project, but you just keep Jesus out of my face. Saturday morning at 6 a.m., I was watching him come out in a plastic bag. You got no guarantees. I'm not trying to scare you into it because let's just think about life. Say you live another 50 years. Jesus can put the joy in your heart and give you a reason to live. You become a living sacrifice to Jesus. You don't have to quit any group, any organization. People say, well, I smoke. I can't accept the law. I can't give up smoking. But first, don't worry about it. First of all, I don't believe anybody's going to hell for smoking. You just smell like it. That's all. You say, well, I drink or, well, I've got a girlfriend or I've got a boyfriend or I'm doing this or I'm doing that. Just come to Jesus and receive him as your Lord and Savior and then just let Jesus just surrender it all to the Lord. Jesus will be gentle with you. Don't miss your chance for life. Don't miss your chance for excitement. You want to rebel, rebel against the world. You say, well, I'm in the fast lane. Yeah, the fast lane is going to hell. You need to come to the Lord Jesus Christ where your sins are forgiven and you will not believe. You will believe after it happens, but you can't conceive of the peace and joy you'll have. Those of you that want to receive Jesus, we're going to pray for you. I want you to raise your hand. I'm going to pray with you. Go ahead and raise your hand. Who's out there? Let's pray in tongues. Those of you that have the Holy Spirit, who's ready to receive Jesus tonight? God bless you, brother. Come on up here. I'm not going to make any spectacle out of you, but you just come on up here. And somebody that's born again with him, near him, would you come on up? You're the first one. It's always the first one the Lord uses and then people start coming. Praise God for you, sister. Praise God. There are others here. Here we go. There's more. I was just saying I'm going a little, little late tonight, but you know, this is the most important part of it. Those of you that agree that I can keep going tonight for however long it takes, I want you to raise your hand. Thank you very much. Okay, we'll do it. Praise God. This is what it's all about. Praise you, Jesus. This is what it's all about. Could I have somebody play in the piano there a little bit? Like softly or whatever? We'll wait for you. Praise God. Don't put it off. And I'm going to, I have never said this before, but if there are some of you that have accepted Jesus and you feel like you're sliding or you've slid, Jesus didn't say life would be perfect. He just said, I'll give you the strength to get through it and I'll give you the power to overcome the world. Those of you, if you feel like you want to rededicate your life to Jesus, you come on up here too and we'll pray. Praise God. We've got time. Could you people move in here? Because we've got people coming down through the front here. Could you move on in? God bless you. Hi. Praise God. How you doing? Praise the Lord. Jesus is giving you a new heart. You're going to receive a new heart. For God, the one that I stood on when I got saved was for God has not given me the spirit of fear, but of power, of love and of a sound mind. Some of you people that have been hit the hardest, some of you people that have been hurt the worst, I believe it's because you're going to be used the strongest. I ran from my blessings. I ran from my blessings. Praise God. There's some people coming up tonight that the Lord's really, there's some real things that are being surrendered and broken through here with everybody here. Praise God. God bless you. God bless. Let's hear it for these people and for Jesus that's doing what he's done. We have more counselors up here. Where are all the counselors? Okay, can we move up there? People up here in the front that I think it'd be good if people could pray. Can we have more women up here too? More women counselors? Praise you, Jesus. Praise God. It's a beautiful baby there. Praise God. Praise God. Jesus said, I am the resurrection and the life. He that believeth in me, though he were dead, yet shall he live. I was dead and now I'm alive. You people that are accepting Jesus tonight, a trillion years from today, you'll still be praising him. Praise you, Lord. Praise you, Holy Spirit, for being in this place. Praise you, Holy Spirit, for moving upon these people. We've still got people coming forward. Just come on, those of you that are in the back there. I want everybody that's born again to turn to at least two or three people around you and say, have you accepted Jesus as your Lord and Savior? And if they say no, say, I'll bring you forward. And if they'll come, come up with him and bring him forward. Okay, I want everybody to turn to several people and say, have you accepted Jesus? And if they say no, say, I'll go with you. Some people need a little help. Say, I'll go with you. Go ahead and ask all you people. Don't miss a chance. This is a great chance to witness. People say, how can I get into the street ministry? Well, find a street. Go into the street. Find a human being. Witness to that human being about Jesus. You're now in the street ministry. Starts right here. Praise you. How many of you people have asked at least two people? Let me see your hands. Should be a lot more. Don't be bashful, guys. Do you remember when you accepted Jesus? What a wonderful time that was. Don't you want to be somebody's spiritual daddy or mommy? The one that brought him to the Lord? I love Nick DiCipio for having the power and the strength to witness to me about Jesus. Jesus is the one responsible for my salvation. But Nick was ready to speak. The Lord used him. Then there was Nicky Cruz who discipled me for three years. And I was rough. The Lord sent Nicky Cruz into my life because Nicky's the kind of guy where you know he loves Jesus. But there's also something about Nicky Cruz that you know if he ever forgets that he loves Jesus, you're in a lot of trouble. Nicky discipled me for three years. So if you people are going to witness and speak to somebody, do it. For God uses us. And then bring him forward. Praise you, Jesus. Praise God. Good. Yeah, you can clap. Praise God. Praise God. Praise you, Jesus. Oh, he is Lord. He has risen from the dead and he is Lord. Every knee shall bow. Every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord. For he is Lord. Come on to the Lord, people. He is Lord. He has risen from the dead and he is Lord. Every knee shall bow. Every tongue confess that Jesus Christ is Lord. Praise you, Jesus. You people are going to pray his prayer to the Lord Jesus Christ. You're going to receive him as your Savior. Praise God. Hi, honey. Praise God. How old are you, darling? Eight. Praise God. You're the same age as my little daughter, Nissa. You're pretty, too. Praise God. It's never too young and never too old to accept Jesus. Never too young. You can be eight or eighty. Praise God. Jesus says, I will take your sins and they'll be as far as the east is to the west away from you. I've had people come up to me and say, you're born again. You. I remember you. I've had things that would be embarrassing by worldly standards. People come up to me and say, you remember that? You're a Christian. You remember that? And I say, yeah, I remember it. But thank God my Father in heaven does. And it's under the blood of Jesus. Jesus says, if you drink of water, you will thirst again. But he who drinks of the water of life will never thirst again. Jesus is the life, the water of life, who make the water of life like a spring that'll just flow within you. Praise God. All right, we're going to receive Jesus now. I want everybody to pray this in support of these people that are praying it for the first time here. Those of you who have come back to the Lord, you've known him and you've known his love and you know he is the way. You know he's the only answer in your life. But because of weakness or pressure or whatever has happened in your life, you've fallen away for a time. And now you're saying, I know where I belong. You people pray this too. Jesus is quick to forgive. There's only one who is perfect, and that's your Lord and my Lord, Jesus, the only Messiah, the risen Messiah. There are people who pray to idols and there are people who pray to men that have died and been buried. But we pray to a risen Lord, the Lord who is at the right hand of the Father, the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. Now I want you to pray with me. Each and every one of you, you're going to pray unto salvation this day. Say, Father, I come before you in Jesus name.